no one really bothered my presence. be where i'm in. i stick out too much. why shld i even b in this world when i'm not needed? i can only find peace and happy when i'm alone. things changed so much in jus 3 mths. i used to love fun, being together with my frens. but now it wasnt. mayb b'cos i used to have big jon, esther chua but now we seemed to b gg diff directions mayb frm e start i'm jus having gd frens and never best frens now we seemed to b distant frm one another tt's y things changes mayb things'll change for the better soon.

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i've lost interest today. i'm NOT transparent or like a piece of glass! i pretended to b happy, to luff and to smile when i'm not happy at all. can anyone come to me? asking me wad's wrong? no. no. no one can. nor did anyone bothered. i wished sm1 jus scold me, tell me not to pretend anymore. pretending is a tough job. smt u have to do each day for me. tinking of new lies, finding more masks to hide my real self it's tough. it really is. but who knew wad it feels to b? who can come to me, telling me to take off tt face mask of mine? to lead me out of this misery. to cheer me up when things are down. i wished i could control my life i wished i could control e way things go but i jus cant. wtf.